There's a word used in the Bible and in church among Christian people that I have always wanted to delete. This word has always brought to mind difficult concepts like judgement, change, sacrifice, hard work etc. Ideas that are emotionally painful and create discomfort. Then one day I was dwelling on my weaknesses which was creating intense feelings of self loathing. I was wishing things were different and that I was different, better somehow. Yet, I was not able to be different. Still doing the same old things, but wanting different results (Romans 7:19-20). Which is Eisnstien's definition of crazy, by the way.
Then, in the midst of my craziness and while I was being so hard on myself I saw a hand painted sign on the side of the road that had that difficult word on it. However, now all of a sudden that word that had seemed so judgemental before was now full of hope, it was all of a sudden gentle, even inspiring. I realized that there was a way I could deal with my weaknesses. That there was an alternative. That I didn't have to remain stuck in this. Things could be different and there was something I could do about it. What relief came to me because of that one word. That word that had previously been so difficult. That word I saw on the road was: repent.
Prayer: God, help me turn to You.
Read More: Romans 7:14-25
Plan of Action (James 1:22 & James 1:25): Take the next right step.
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